nothing like a great comeback to tumblr!!!

NOT.

ew i know i’m not using this anymore, and i have no plans yet to join the shitty tumblr community again but i couldn’t bombard my twitter followers with the lame teenage girl boy problems i’m yet to let out…and uh yea i’m really hoping no ones reading this. so i’ve just had my first ever summer job at an outlet shop which was totally awesome, and yeah, it’s like the best shop ever. anyways, it was just me, and my bosss working, then another girl came in whos totally cool, so it was us, and it was fun. and then the owner of the shop or company, or whatever, comes in and he’s all like “hey ya’ll, has (my grandson) called you guys? cause uhh he’s available to work now for the summer” AND THEN

my boss, and my other co worker were all like, ohhhh fuck, and i was like “why whats wrong” and aparently the owners “grandson” is like really annoying and lazy,. and just really fucking gay (not homo gay, just like, lame gay) like, he’s the rich, only child, who’s been MADE to work so he knows the “value of money” and shit. then i was all like, um okay. should be all good, and whatever. they were telling me all these stories about how one time he just sat there doing nothing, lol. whatever.

THEN. once he came in i was like oh my fucking what the fuck. I didn’t really no what to make of him when i first saw him, he was nothing to what i was expecting he to be, and he wasn’t that bad looking but oh my fucking goooodness i’ve never seen anyone with the most beautiful eyes ever, holy shit. they’re like ice blue, and he’s tall, and soooooooo good looking, but from the stuff i’ve heard about him, ididn’t really think much of him at the time.

so we’ve been working together for maybe around 2 weeks now, and LOL he’s so fucking bossy, and really smart, and just a prick, but omg somehow he’s really likeable? And all i know about him is that he told me that he went to a really big boarding school here in auckland, and that he wants to go to med school in 2 years, but for the mean time just chill, and he’s 17 just like me, and i never thought i’d crush so hard on a 17 year old…because im usually into “older guys”. but whatever. AND these past 2 days of working together have been really fun (for me at least), and yeah he’s got a girlfriend (DONT ASK HOW I KNOW THAT EVEN THO U PROBS WON’T) but idk, i don’t actually give a shit, because i like this guy, and i don’t care if he’s fucking some other chick (which i wish he wont be but most likely will be lol) and ugggggggggggggggghh

NOW i don’t work there anymore, because monday was my last day, and it was so sad, but i came in yesterday to give them some christmas cakes, and say my goodbyes and yeah i wasn’t expecting him to give a shit or anything that i’m probably never going to see him again…an yeah he didn’t really. but holy fuck he looked so good yesterday i just wanted to like drag him down into the store room and make out with him. ew im so lame. but yeah.

and now i can’t stop thinking about him, like for real, and i haven’t had a crush on a guy for like, years, and i’m never going to see him again, and idk WHY i like him, cause he’s really not what i’d usually be going for (not looks, just personality wise) but idk, i just do. and i want it to stop, because i’m really depressed and annoyed and yeah. i just need to get the fuck over him, because uhhhhh in two years time he’s going to be dunedin which is in the south island, and yeah, i just wish i wasn’t such a loser, and that i could have talked to him more, and stuff, but no. ugly girls dont do shit like that. and now i feel gay for writing this whole thing about one stupid boy, and “omg im laik sewww depressed 4evr alone omagaaaaaahhh”

yeah, fuck. how ya’ll doin?